I used to feel ashamed of my story. I felt like other people’s past chapters were titled things like, “Skipping Through Fields with a Happy Golden Retriever” and my chapters were like, “Crawling Through Darkness with a Bunch of Scary Monsters..” I also kept trying to find someone ELSE to write my story for me. I let other people write weird things that made me sad. I let people write things that didn’t resonate with me… Then one day- I took my pen back. (Also, I made friends with those monsters and now we are skipping through fields together and we are fabulous!)
I wrote the words below to myself to feel better about my story and what I will write next. What do you want to write next in the story of your life?
Your life is a book
and it’s time for you
to take your pen back.
It’s time for you to write.
Get out your eraser
and erase the things you’ve let others write
that don’t feel good.
Those words are not true for you anymore.
Others can write in their own books. But not yours.
Your story
is
YOUR story.
When she said you were ugly
When he said you were crazy
When they called you a freak
When they said, “You won’t amount to anything!”
When the TV told you about fear
When the magazine told you about beauty
When the hater told you,
“Give up.”
Hold your book to your chest.
It’s so precious.
It’s such a gift.
It’s your choice what to keep.
What to let live in you.
Make it nourishing. Make it kind.
Ask yourself,
Does this build me up
or tear me down?
You can edit.
Don’t be jealous
of other books
with shiny covers
They are all
works in progress
on the inside
Sometimes the shiniest outsides
have the saddest stories
hidden away
We can all write
something grand!
No ones pen
is more special
Everyone’s pen
is magical!
Write yourself
Love letters
Write about what brought you joy
when you were a little child
And life hadn’t crossed out
your pictures
When naysayers hadn’t
ripped out your plans
When you hadn’t given your pen away
fearful that you didn’t have the words.
You’ve always had the words.
No one
NO ONE was more qualified to write than you.
What did you want to do
when you were seven?
Let the shame and the guilt
Fall away
No one has a book
without confusing chapters
without mistakes
Those chapters
Made you a better writer
Those chapters
Had a purpose.
Look at the things you wrote
that make you cringe
Why did you make those choices?
Were you in pain?
Were you trying to find love
in all the wrong places?
Were you hurt?
It’s time to forgive that broken you.
Because guilt and shame
affect the new chapters you write.
They use up way too much ink.
Write your life without them now.
Your book is valuable.
Your book is worth
Reading and sharing.
Your book is GREAT.
Publish it, baby!
No book is perfect
Because perfect books
Are boring books
Your book is better than perfect
It’s a joyful
clumsy
masterpiece.
Well said, I totally agree and this is what I am doing with my blog. Thanks for following me, I look forward to reading more of your posts. 🙂
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So happy to connect w you! Thanks so much!!! 😊😊☺️
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Reblogged this on Leah Holden and commented:
Love this!! Gotta go write that first chapter now 😉
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Thanks tons, Leah! 😋😊😅😘
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Your words are so motivational. Feelings so many experience but may not know how to express. This is something people of all ages should read. This teaches us to spread our wings and fly. To never give up on our dreams. To rest awhile if you have to, but breath deep and continue. Thank you for being yourself and sharing yourself with us.
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Thanks for your awesome thoughts! 💕💜
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In case I didn’t mention it, thank you for following my blog.
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My pleasure!
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I had someone ask me about my recent blog: https://doctorkohns.wordpress.com/2015/08/30/what-if-sartre-was-right-and-other-musing-on-belief/
“Why would you write something so personal? It’s a window to your soul.”
After reading your blog, I have the answer:
“Because I don’t trust someone else to write my story.”
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Totally get you! Awesome
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How beautifully written. ❤
THANKS! too for the 'Follow'!!! 😀
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Thanks so much, Patrice!
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Absolutely love this! And the last words . . .
It’s a joyful
clumsy
masterpiece.
Really speak to my heart.
Thank you for the follow~Rachel!
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Omg! Thanks soooo much, Sally!!
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So true gal..
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💜💜💜
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You inspire me alot….
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Aw! Yay!!! 💜 thanks so much!
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Reblogged this on Suicide Awareness – I beat suicide.
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Very true! My purpose of starting a blog was to tell my story. It took me over a year to share it. I was ashamed of myself. I didn’t know how receptive my followers would be, they were supportive, and empathic. They gave me the encouragement I needed to share the darkness from which I came from. This is a great post! Thank you for following my blog. I will explore your musing very soon. Blessings and peace!!
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So happy to connect with you! So glad your letting that shame go and rockin’ your story! You are inspiring! 💙
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Thank you! That means a great deal to me! Blessings and peace! 💗✌
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So much peace and so many blessing back, Ms. Beautiful Vee
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